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Feeling more like

Hopefully someday my legs will support my body once again.

Hello there!

Those who know me well will tell you that there isn't much about myself that I am not willing to divulge. In fact, a lot of people will tell you that often times I share entirely too much. So I have decided to share something that has been on my mind for a couple of months.

I am not very friendly, and quite frequently I am entirely unsociable. This aspect of my personality doesn't present itself while I am in my comfort zone. I can be quite social when I am interacting with people in predictable settings, i.e. coworkers at work, students in the school. But if you were to move these same people to a setting in which I don't regularly interact with them, say the grocery store, I will avoid them like the plague.

Twice this winter I have seen coworkers at the mall and have pretended not to see them. While shopping for baby items at Wal-mart I saw a girl from high school. Did I smile and wave, or make an attempt at small talk? Nope. I averted my eyes and pretended not to see her. A few months later, same girl, now at the mall. Do I take the chance to redeem myself? Say hello? Heaven's sakes, no! I once again revert to my pattern of obvious oblivion. The problem is, I liked this girl in high school. And now 9 years later, I frequent her blog, and I have found that I still like her.

So what is my problem? I'm not quite sure, but if you see me at the mall or grocery store, and notice a panicked "deer in the headlights" look in my eyes, don't let me get away with the feigned ignorance of my surroundings. Hopefully, after recognizing and disliking this behavior, I will fix it myself and I will say hello before you even see me, but if not, call my bluff.

In the meantime, though, sorry Morgan for looking the other way.